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Night Dreams

1st Dream

I'm offering tarot classes in my home and TR is a guest speaker. However, instead of my own home, everyone shows up at Jose's house, which is in disarray, curtains hanging half off their hooks, etc.

Jose is angry about it. He starts working on his yard, trimming, weeding. I try and apologize for the mistake but he literally runs away from me. I'm chasing after him but can't catch up.

TR and her daughter are leaving and they are driving and a tricked out classic car, like a 60's sports car, painted white with thick black zebra stripes. There's a dot-tint over the windows and I can't see inside the car.

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2nd Dream

I'm in a hotel room with Bill. He leaves and I'm waiting for him to come back.
...flash... a jacuzzi hot tub
...flash... a black shirt of his, smelling it
...flash... watching something on tv

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Feelings in Dreams
...slight panic ...need to fix this!

IRL
...getting a lot of clients who are interested in how to get away with cheating.
...MeetUp yesterday in San Clemente. Only LB and Dean showed.
...conversations about TR and her advice about my MeetUps.
...conversations yesterday about NWTS and roommatting.
...conversations yesterday about Bill and LB's daughter, and how they reach out to us in dreams and spirit-signs [re:2nd dream].

Signs and Symbols
TR = my ideal, my goal
Jose = maintenance-man/ex-work-husband (helper)
dot-tinted windows = I can't see what's really inside TR's success
wrong house = ^
disarray =  ^
chasing = ^

Meanings
Things are not the way I want them to be.
My efforts are ending up less appealing than I want.
Am I chasing after the wrong things? [Jose]
I need to set things up just right! [TR]
...feeling like I'm doing something wrong in attracting my ideal clients.
...like I need to be careful about not attracting weeds or allowing weeds to grow in my biz.
Is this something I need to fight against or should I be more grateful and less judgemental?
Feeling conflicted.
Feeling like I want a higher quality of my "Top Five."

Actions
Combat unwanted results by pulling weeds.
Write up my ideal day, ideal clients, Top 5, etc. to get a better feeling.

Tarot Association
5 of Air ~ Combat
Epiphanies Tarot
by Mystic-Mentor.com

2/6/16 = day one

What Am I Letting Slip By?

Night Dream

...flash...
Bill, accidently dropping cell phone in river. I'm standing in this light flowing stream, dipping my hand under, searching for my cell phone, pulling out a silver bowl which I decide to keep, then, eventually, my phone.

I'm thinking of immersing it in dry white rice so it will work again.

...feeling calm, not urgent, like the light flow of the water.

IRL
Last night and this morning I again smelled Bill's cigarettes.
1:11 a.m. = trapped another rat (which Dean released before work.)

The silver bowl is one that I looked at on amazon . com

I just bought white rice + had white rice for dinner last night. Felt like I ate a little too much, actually.

I'm about to teach "Digital Divination" centering on the use of cell phones for divination this Friday at my Extra-Mystical-Activities MeetUp.

Possible Meanings
lost phone = Subconscious messages not coming through. Temporarily broke because I am letting them slip.

Rat = Bill = ...hmm... a strong connection to the Other Side because we share Candace. There's a lot going on with Candace right now [irl] so maybe he's saying he's watching over her. Or, I'm to tap into what's going on with her. Not sure.

Stream = calm emotions

Rice = bland, content, satisfying

Actions
I need to be mindful about tuning in to all the spirit messages going on around me.

Tarot Association

Epiphanies Tarot by Mystic-Mentor.com

Two of Air

What am I not noticing???

2/3/2016 = day 7

---side note---
Two huge crows are in my tree, facing me, right now as I write this.
They are beautiful. Spirit Animal? Of course!
Wow -- now, three. All facing me.
Now, four!!!!
Three.
Two -  Are The watching me or am I watching them???
One.
none
...listening to "caw, caw, caw-caw-caw!"

Rat

Rat as a Spirit Animal
resourceful, intelligent, clever, invading, incredibly adaptable

Rat's Message
clear clutter, strengthen walls, be innovative and all of the above

If Rat were a #SpiritSign for me, I'd take it as a message from my deceased baby-daddy, Bill Black, that he's watching over me, here, even though not wanted. 

I know this because when he abandoned our two year old daughter, I bought her a pet rat to distract her from the loss. 

(I thought it was very symbolic at the time, so 3 of Air.)

We never heard from him again. He died of a rough life at age 51 when our daughter was 13 years old. She's 28 now, and grew up perfectly fine without her rat of a bio-father.

All is forgiven. We were blessed by his absence and better off. Yet, I know he must regret leaving us then and is here now saying I'm around even if not wanted.

Tarot Association = 3 of Air

Sometimes we don't realize what kind a person someone really is, and if they betray us, we think of them as a rat.


:::image:::
3 of Air ~ Heartbreak
Epiphanies Tarot
by Mystic-Mentor.com









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1/15/16 :::UPDATE::: #SpiritSign

We trapped a rat yesterday and Dean released him just before 5:00 a.m.

We both mentioned that we felt bad kicking the rat out in the freezing weather. Glad we don't kill though.

My friend, Linda Ursin, posted her painting at 4:56 a.m. yesterday.

Message: Rat found proper shelter.