Sending Forget-Me-Nots

"For some strange reason, 
I feel like I miss you already."
~ wife

As I'm getting ready for my next SoulOh,
the Six of Air always comes to mind.
It's a bitter sweet mix of anticipation and regret.

In my past three solo travels, sometimes I'd let myself miss my home (my own bed, my husband, and puppy loves) so much that it clouded the adventure. I vow to not let that happen this time.

I will live in the moment, relishing beauty and epiphanies.

I will not miss not being missed, cherished, or most of all, held.

Yesterday, I found a personal writing from 2003.
My wishes and dreams were exactly the same then and they are today. It made me sad. I thought I had grown?

Maybe I have, because I'm inspired now, and again, to finally conquer these recurring themes
...of making a positive difference in my daughter's life,
...of my home being a resort,
...of being desirable,
...of being remarkable.

​Six of Air

= leaving baggage behind, forget me nots, past wishes, traveling into the unknown, a brighter future...

2/25/16 + 4/7 = day 2

I Can Go My Own Way

Night Dream

...flash... Covo with Dean.
Dean promising, suggesting, and planning various activities, like dinners, like LasVegas, like traveling to Portland... and then, making up dumb excuses when he can't.

...flash... Sitting on one of my brown leather dining room chairs and flying through the air at night over the city. I have a friend following me, a black man that I don't know irl.

I see/hear my dad cautioning me to be careful about traveling like that.

Feelings
Re: Chair Flying - I feel slightly frightened, yet in awe since it's so amazing! - like flying in an airplane.
Re: Dean reneging - I feel more empowered than sad.

IRL
It's a four-day weekend and Dean suggested a road trip, but as usual, he's playing Elder Scrolls constantly, losing track of all time, not even realizing I'm in the same room.

My dad always worries when I travel on my own.

Meaning
If I want to travel, go out, enjoy anything other than home life -- I'll need to do it on my own.
Caveat - it can and will be amazing!
+ Dean can take care of the dogs, especially Sissy.
+ I love doing my own thing!

Actions
Plan my Portland trip.

Tarot Association
The Six of Air
Epiphanies Tarot
by Mystic-Mentor.com



#78songs #6Air
Go Your Own Way ~ Fleetwood Mac
https://youtu.be/6ul-cZyuYq4

2/13/2016 + 4/7 = 26 = day 8